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Heh....you probably would not read this until a month has passed,

False hopes it may be,

but, that was once the truth to me

I never lied

I said what I believed,

the truth in my heart

Over time though

I said what I did for reasons

I didn't know how it would affect you

For that I'm sorry

I never checked the connections

I kept everyone away

I was naive

You have started a new life now

One without me

Though it makes me sad

I'm glad

I want to stay connected,

though you would not include the details

The general things are still nice

Heh... this is not me asking you back, this is my apology for not reading your blogs, when I was pushing you away.

Stand Up

In your mind, the pressure builds up; parents, friends, relationships... What can you do? Where is it safe? Why you? Many things happen, to the benevolent and the malicious, but one must persevere throughout all the hardships. Its the difficulties that makes us strong, the losses that encourage us, and the successes that makes us!

At times it gets very difficult, people expecting things, wanting more, but why you? They can do what they want, but why am I in it? People do many things, for reasons most keep to themselves. One can be your best friend just to "use" you later on, so who can you trust? The world is vast, filled with its share of good and bad, those that you trust is up to you, but don't expect everything to work out the first time. Luck rarely occurs over and over, one has to take the extra effort to achieve what they want. But what would life be without the difficulties? Enjoy the time you have with someone, do what you want, enjoy the life you live, and most of all don't regret! If you want something then ask, whats there to lose? Your outlook? It's better to try and fail with people laughing at you , which they rarely do, rather than not try because of public opinion; there's always a first time. Besides without trying where will you get? Being more open requires self-confidence, trusting more people, even with the risk of them hurting you back, but if you don't try then who will? Always expecting things to happen for you without you even making the effort, that's luck! Put forth the effort, be more active, and make new friends. Having those you can talk to, spend time with, and share your happiness is a necessity. So go spend some time with those people, relieve the pressure, and enjoy your life!

There is nothing to lose, but everything to gain.

New :P

Yo poptart

hey all the way

all i gotta say

its just me yo

enter my domain

without all that profain~ity

say yo yo yo

hi there

he's here

im new

be TRUE!

Something new

Leaving school on Friday

my whole weekend ahead

laying on my bed

the homework I dread

I want to try something new

something different

going to the park

try tennis for the first time

I know i'll fail

miss it half the time

aim so badly

but whats so bad?

just have fun

x)

Never kno till u try

Helpless

So far away

with you on my mind

i feel astray

why are you so kind?

I feel useless

unable to do anything

so helpless

just nothing

its killing me

why does this have to be...

I wait for

that one day

when i can be there

in your life

as someone

.....useful

by your side

Step

The first step

most difficult of them all

when to begin

how will it end

enshrouded in mystery

why take the risk

To believe this

opportunities missed

to never try

being "shy"

Taking the first step

what can you regret?

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Key club first meet

At 7:07pm my parents returned with the car. I argued some, but eventually decided to go even if I was late. We arrive around 7:16 ish to my high school, where I found a random seat, near people I thought I knew. I talked a little to them, turned out they were just random people. At around 7:30 we all got up and played a game to know other people, whom I knew barely any. I find some people I think I knew and just switched in between groups every time a new game started. Meeting new people was fun, getting to know their names(which I've sadly already forgotten), and hanging around them for a while. When I got home I tried to exercise like normal, but somehow felt down, I don't know why.