Something new

Leaving school on Friday

my whole weekend ahead

laying on my bed

the homework I dread

I want to try something new

something different

going to the park

try tennis for the first time

I know i'll fail

miss it half the time

aim so badly

but whats so bad?

just have fun

x)

Never kno till u try

Helpless

So far away

with you on my mind

i feel astray

why are you so kind?

I feel useless

unable to do anything

so helpless

just nothing

its killing me

why does this have to be...

I wait for

that one day

when i can be there

in your life

as someone

.....useful

by your side

Step

The first step

most difficult of them all

when to begin

how will it end

enshrouded in mystery

why take the risk

To believe this

opportunities missed

to never try

being "shy"

Taking the first step

what can you regret?

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Key club first meet

At 7:07pm my parents returned with the car. I argued some, but eventually decided to go even if I was late. We arrive around 7:16 ish to my high school, where I found a random seat, near people I thought I knew. I talked a little to them, turned out they were just random people. At around 7:30 we all got up and played a game to know other people, whom I knew barely any. I find some people I think I knew and just switched in between groups every time a new game started. Meeting new people was fun, getting to know their names(which I've sadly already forgotten), and hanging around them for a while. When I got home I tried to exercise like normal, but somehow felt down, I don't know why.

Waiting

We were so close
and now so far
how do I cope..
with this longing feeling
together for only a short time
I wish it would last
wanting it to continue
what am I to do?

Every day...
I miss you more
I space out randomly..
thinking about you
I try not to...
occupying myself in activities
but whenever I'm free
your the first thing on my mind

I have to wait (a year)
overloading myself...
extracurricular activities; studying
just to hasten that time
for the day
my world will re bloom...
being with you
together once again

Summer

The end of sophmore year

the beginning of freedom

I leave with few regrets

for the fun has just begun

At the end of June

I left for MA

the drive taking a day

feel asleep right away

first week was difficult

train system, one way roads

new class, new people, and

new environment.

First day at Junction

I ended up in a good group

though i still felt isolated

no one I knew...

all strangers

I stayed with them (group) for a while

slowly talking to others

eventually switching (group)

and meeting new people

making more friends

and one special person

Junction ended quickly

wanting more time...

wishing to stay...

being separated...

I miss MA already

but will come back next year :)

Bored

Monday; the beginning

the week passing by

homework and classwork piling up

extracurricular activities

no time to enjoy

When Friday comes

what is there to do?

cant get out

nothing planned

just settling here (at home)

time slowly passing by

like an hourglass

i slowly feel empty

Through the day though

I have one person

I talk to

filling that void...

of emptiness

with them..

the day passes by

the hourglass turned

and the emptiness gone